Molly’s World

Processing the Suicide of my First Love

On the flight back home to California, I wrote, “I’m ready to get back to my real life. This weekend has been 1000x harder than I ever imagined.” I lost my first love, an incredibly formative part of my past, to suicide 3 weeks ago. And last weekend, I traveled to my hometown of Helena,…

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10 Things I’d Like to Learn

After a Monday where I couldn’t get off the ground and a Tuesday full of tiny minutiae that probably doesn’t matter in the scheme of things, I escaped to the ocean yesterday afternoon with a chai latte and my journal. This is one of the quickest ways for me to center back into myself —…

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Why I Posted Naked Photos on Instagram

I saw a post on Instagram about the challenge the day it started. My friend and pleasure teacher Ev’yan Whitney was running a Sensual Selfie Challenge, and without thinking too much about it because I knew I would probably talk myself out of it — I yanked my shirt off at 3 pm in my…

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I Don’t Want to Abandon Myself Ever Again

When I read this today it stopped me in my tracks. It was posted in our Reclamation group where we’ve been having deep discussions about feeling our feelings and the places we numb. Ellenkate wrote, “Today I had the thought, ‘When I numb, I abandon myself.’ Followed by, ‘But I have to abandon myself sometimes,…

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Meeting Yourself Where You Are aka Surrender

You’ve done it. I’ve done it. We’ve all done it… Kicked + screamed + flatout ignored that change was underway or that desperation was creeping in or that love was being ignited. You weren’t ready or able or in the mood for something you couldn’t control. Yet, denying change pretty much guarantees it’s going to…

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Choosing Instinct over Logic

Last month, I launched my 6th year of my Elevate Mastermind Group to a waitlist of over 400 women. I posted about it on social media. I read beautiful applications, made acceptance calls and watched deposits roll in. Three days later, I woke up feeling like shit. Like super sick, but beyond that — there…

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