One of the significant benefits I get from blogging is the ability to look back and clearly be able to see where I’ve been. My blog marks my life completely. It also keeps me accountable for better or for worse. There is a record of every New Year Resolution, Birthday Dream, or Life List I’ve made since I started blogging almost 4 years ago.
Yesterday, Laura wrote a kickass post about New Beginnings and Self Care Habits. (Go ahead and check it out, I’ll wait….) I am so inspired by people claiming their lives and making plans. It makes me want to join them. I have always been a planner and I make goals and create mantras twice a year, once in the beginning of the year and once on my birthday (June 7th in case you wanted to send me flowers). It’s time to check in with myself.
I started the year in a hot tub with a handful of amazing bloggers and as the countdown began we all yelled what we wanted in 2011. When my turn came I exclaimed that I wanted to be bold.
I wanted to live a vibrant life without fear.
I wanted to meet challenges head on.
I wanted to feel in love with my life, not because I’ve been lucky but because I’d gone out and claimed what I wanted.
- I decided to make the first move. Especially when I was feeling that old hesitant, meek, self-doubting CRAP start sneaking in.
- I decided to ask for what I want. In relationships. In my job. I wanted to be more comfortable with the possibility of rejection. Rejection didn’t mean I suck, in fact rejection meant I had tried for something. I decided to start looking at rejections as gold stars of boldness. I sought to learn how to take rejection, dust off, and seriously move on.
- I decided to take more risks. Be more spontaneous. The best possible moments of 2010 were the unplanned ones. It was spur of the moment trips. It was changing plans because the wind shifted. It was risking opening my home to 6 bloggers and spending a day under a fort sans-makeup.
- I decided to figure myself out even more. Isn’t that the root of boldness anyhow? REALLY loving yourself. Really believing in yourself. Getting your validation and worth from within. I wanted to BOLDLY LOVE myself. Bold love, bold love, bold love.
My life has been bold since then. That’s for sure. I fell in love. I am growing a little human in my belly. Last Friday I got married. Saying that I had no way of knowing all of this was coming my way is true in that you can never really know what hand you’ll be dealt, but I believed it could happen. I believed that my life could change at anytime. Anyone I meet has the ability to alter my life if I let them in.
There is no way to control when you’ll meet the person you’re meant to be with but what would have happened if, when I met Mr. A, I was closed off and afraid? Nothing. Nothing would have happened. I would have fled at the first sign of intensity. I would have been unable to trust that sometimes love rushes in like a lightening bolt. You have to believe that magic is possible or you might miss it. You have to risk it, whatever it is: your heart, your comfort, your bold dreams.
As the second half of the year begins I am making some new goals. My mantra is joy. I want to exude joy.
- I want to find all the joy there is in my life. I want to spend time digging in to Joy Juice and making sure I’m not losing myself in the craziness of a new marriage and an impending bouncing-baby.
- I want to find ways to be a joy to others. I want to be kinder. I want to be more patient. I want to use my story to be a light when others are in the dark.
- I want my joy to be real. I want to balanced in my joy, acknowledging the not-so-happy-parts of me and my life so that I can really enjoy the good parts.
The rest of 2011 is going to be amazing. What do you want out of it? What forms of goal setting work for you? How do you keep yourself accountable?